Blackbutterfly Soul Songs Read online

  of melanin the energy of chakras the beating

  of heart and mind

  blackbutterfly yielding to marriage

  of spirit and body the wisdom

  of the ancestors the purpose

  of the soul

  the expansion

  of rainbow galaxies light

  black butterfly

  now in this moment for all who vision and create new thoughts

  new story

  re-invented re-written

  new life

  blackbutterfly now re-membering

  Olodumare, Orunmilla, Ori, Orisha, Obatala, Oshun, Oba

  there is no crying blackbutterfly is flying.

  The Calling

  Awake my daughter and arise

  No longer tarry among

  The ashes and the dust

  Awake and be

  The seers and the prophetesses

  Who know the

  Experiencing of the truth

  From the source of the soul

  For it waits in the silence

  To give release

  Awake at the opening of the way.

  Leap across the universe of being

  Soar to heights now known.

  For light is its resting place

  And life gives energy

  To birth of its self

  Its own kind

  Awake to the only true birth

  Which is of love.

  Initiate’s Song

  I got to wake up

  I got to wake up

  Got to find out

  Who I am.

  Got to get up

  Got to get up

  Got to find out

  Who I am.

  When I woke up

  When I got up

  When I found out

  Who I am

  I found out I found out

  I found out just

  who

  I am

  I Am

  that

  I Am.

  I am that I am. I am that I

  am

  I am I am

  The Higher Calling

  I can hear my higher calling

  I can hear my higher calling

  I can hear my higher calling

  I’ll go with love I’ll go

  with love I’ll go with love

  All the way.

  Where love leads me

  I will follow

  Where love leads me

  I will follow

  Where love leads me

  I will follow

  I’ll go with love

  I’ll go with love

  I’ll go with love

  All the way.

  I can hear my higher calling

  I can hear my higher calling

  I can hear my higher calling

  I’ll go with love

  I’ll go with love

  All the way.

  Sankofa

  I want to go and play

  I want to run away

  But I have to stay here to be

  And see the inner workings of me

  Am tired of the mess

  I long for the rest

  Looking back over the past

  Wondering how long it can last

  The misery and the pain

  The lost and the shame

  Yet soul’s only call is

  For the wholeness of all

  Soul lessons begin

  As I turn within

  And become one with self

  And acknowledge the depth

  Of below and above

  Of life’s true love

  The time is now

  The way is how

  To move forward in life

  This ends the old strife

  There is no need to escape

  The wonderful fate

  A lesson revealed

  A sentence repealed.

  The Healing Stream of Love for Sister Ruby

  The mighty river of life comes streaming

  Its regenerative rays of love beaming

  Healing with its message bright

  Awesome woman at one in the light

  Relax, my beloved, in the wondrous peace

  Let all thoughts and labor cease

  Rest deep within the bosom of God

  The angels proclaiming with a nod

  Yes, the time for restoration is here

  The plan for recovery is now clear

  Enter the healthful state of knowing

  Where heaven and earth are glowing

  Releasing the holds of stress and wear Rebuilding the embers of life’s care

  Replacing the trite and worn-out beliefs

  Removing idle images and old griefs

  Regenerating body, spirit and soul

  Repairing the brokenness and makes all whole

  Restoring the vitality of God’s chosen one Replenishing the vessel for His will is done

  Blessed and highly favored woman

  A servant called and summoned

  To be the consciousness of love

  To live light as a feather and gentle as a dove

  As soul seeks its refuge from life’s constant harms

  While resting in the arms

  Now safe from the storms

  Loves awakes to be more

  Than ever before.

  I Understand

  I understand, I understand

  I understand that the daughter of God

  Must be formed, must be formed

  That she must be born in me

  I understand, I understand

  I understand this is the way

  To birth the soul

  And that I must now say

  I understand, I understand

  The divine will must be done

  I must be transformed,

  I must be transformed

  Before we can become one

  I understand, I understand

  And now can hear the call

  I understand, I understand

  Truth is the foundation of all.

  FYI

  For your information

  To end all separation

  Don’t assume the function

  Before you know the junction

  Soul is the point

  In every joint

  Where things traumatized

  Are purified and harmonized

  By the truth that grows from a tree

  Buried deep inside of me

  Energetic and flowing

  Loving and glowing

  Sacred in the bosom of soul

  Forever eternal gold.

  Committal

  So close Not to be committed

  So near yet so far apart

  Oh! Does life have to be so?

  I got to I’m going to find me

  Another way of being

  Instead of love slipping away

  I’m gonna to find me love that will stay.

  I’m gonna to find me a lover who wants

  to be committed

  and move into

  the deep places of my heart

  I’m feeling love in my heart

  I’m feeling love in my soul

  I’m feel love in the real parts

  Of me.

  Not just by night

  Not just by day

  But by every possible way.

  Connecting to the light from heaven shining in my soul

  Unifying with a pl
ace of love and peace

  For the light that shines

  It is shining out of me.

  The light in heaven

  Shines brightly in my soul

  Love is rejoicing For I am whole.

  Now and forever Ever soaring

  On to the one light

  To the light of committed love.

  Sowing Seeds of Love

  As I heal from the pain

  As I turn from the shame

  I am sowing

  I am sowing seeds of love.

  As I forgive and let go

  As I live in the flow

  I am sowing

  I am sowing

  Sowing seeds of love

  Sowing seeds of love

  I am sowing seeds of love

  I am sowing,

  I am sowing seeds of love

  As I hear from that above

  I am now a seed of love

  I am sowing

  I am sowing seeds of love.

  As the night turns into day

  As truth now has its way

  I am sowing

  I am sowing seeds of love.

  I’m sowing

  I am sowing seeds of love

  The love that you give

  The life that you live

  You are sowing

  You’re sowing seeds of love

  As I tell my story

  Of exile from glory

  I remember I am the sower

  Of the brand new story

  As I enter glory as I tell my story

  Of how I got over to tell my story

  I am at one with my former glory

  As I sow my seeds of love.

  ABC’s of Love (The Abecedarian of Love)

  A.Always absolutely Love.

  B.Be the beauty and be the bounty of Love.

  C.Cherish and care for Love.

  D.Develop and desire deep Love.

  E.Express the energies and emotions of Love.

  F.Find forgiveness and freedom in Love.

  G.Give generously to Love.

  H.Help others to be healing Love.

  I.Imagine the initiation of Love.

  J.Jump with the jubilant joy of Love.

  K.Know that the key to kindness is Love.

  L.Let the leader in your life be Love.

  M.Make many moves in the name of Love.

  N.Never negate the call for Love.

  O.Open your heart and observe the actions of Love.

  P.Practice patience and peace to create a space for Love.

  Q.Quiet the mind and quiver with Love.

  R.Reveal the radiant rays of Love.

  S.Sing a soulful song of Love.

  T.Tell the tall tale of Love.

  U.Understand the underpinnings of Love.

  V.Vow to vibe and volunteer for Love.

  W.Wake up and walk in the waves of Love.

  X.X-ray your words so they create excellent Love.

  Y.Yield and say “yes” to the yearnings of Love.

  Z.Zealously zero in on the Love.

  freedom song

  soul journeying on

  glad lives reaching out past fear

  to embrace soul songs

  singing divine love sweet tunes

  light melodies that free life

  Freedom Song

  Part III

  Soul Awakenings

  awakening

  butterfly transformed

  pushed through the silk chrysalis

  claiming divine rights

  queen moth crowned majesty in

  her familiar garden

  Meditation

  Along with the complexities of the soul, a practice that influenced my awakening was meditation. I had already discovered the calming benefits of meditation (withdrawal from outer world, look within to the Silence) after some traumatic childhood experience. As an adult, I was formally initiated into meditation by a guru taught in India, Stephen Sandler. This soul path of divine grace and enlightenment provided me with the knowledge and insight to make meditation an integral part of my transformation and awakening.

  Meditation classes, seminars, tapes and retreats ground the meditator in the mind-changing practice of meditation. Daily practice of meditative techniques floods the consciousness and seeps into the subconscious. It is in the subconscious where the alchemy takes place. Hatred is transformed into love, brokenness into wholeness, limitation into abundance, darkness into light and fear to courage. The calm and peace that result from relaxing the mind spills out into every facet of life. It became the medium through which you awaken to the hidden truth of life. And a greater awareness of the presence of soul.

  When you sit to meditate, you emerge with the silent, inner part of creation from which the essence of all life flows. The healing practice of meditation ushers in forgiveness and gratitude which open the gates of closed, cold hearts. Purposes can be revealed. In meditation, a distinct, calm voice spoke within me, “As you awake, help others to awake.” I birthed love and was given a new name, Shamala, spirit-given Love Queen. In meditation, hearts and minds merge with the eternal presence of divinity.

  There are many benefits of meditation. It breaks bounds and attachments to individual/group consciousness. Your consciousness expands and you transcend limited, self-defeating thoughts, ideas and fears. Faculties and talents come alive. A great eye-opener in meditation was that when you come to meditation to sit with your life, your thoughts about yourself and others come with you.

  The soul, the ori, is accessed through meditation, ritual, beliefs and emotions. In meditation, you are the soul/sole observer of your life. Rituals, like prayer, singing and meditation, provide a space where emotions and feelings cry out from our heart/mind (soul) for love, unity and harmony. We are taught to hide our emotions by wearing the mask of lies, denial and suppression. Emotions can tell us where we stand in relationship to our soul.

  Childhood Memories

  television wow

  fantasy box slanted view

  women clean, men rule

  greater here to serve lesser

  television creator

  christmas, invented time

  when some children get good toys

  santa comes cross tracks

  brings hoods, sheets and threats of fire

  easter brings death for coloreds

  my first friend at five

  we played hopscotch, caught red worms

  at nine her aunt said

  no crossing the color line, girl

  sad we both lost each other

  strange being colored

  in the stores white people look

  like darkened storm clouds

  we waited our term while the

  others joined the sneers, cursing

  reading first hobby

  lying on the grass outside

  thoughts run through my mind

  putting letter together

  solving word problem easy

  evening time is fun

  sitting on big couch we play

  word games that show how

  much each person knows ’bout life

  dinner smells make thinking hard

  pressing hair hurts head

  hot comb in tangled curl burns

  melted oil on scalp

  searing skin marring soul’s plan

  make straight line from round circle

  big sisters good help

  friends who teach us bold courage

  they give us the nerve

  to say ‘no’ to our boyfriends

 
Yet forget their own limits

  In Retrospect

  I left from myself

  (with pressed curls)

  Stayed away from myself

  (with ignorance)

  Stepped out of myself

  (with vanity)

  Stood behind myself

  (with rage)

  Took a look at myself

  (with shame)

  Turned around to myself

  (with new identity)

  Came back to myself

  (with courage)

  Vowed never to leave myself

  (for 40 acres and a mule)

  While, big sister’s in the kitchen,

  Cooking smoked bones

  Ronnie’s in the jailhouse

  For getting caught doing wrong

  Baby’s in a corner, eating wall plaster

  Bourgeois’s in the corporate world

  Uncle Tomming to the master.

  Eastern boys in the ghetto

  Peddling their wares

  Expatriates in another culture

  Trying to forget their cares.

  Establishment’s in confusion

  Wondering what’s going on

  Rip Van Winkle Negroes woke up

  To their manhood, long gone.

  Queendom

  There I sat

  In the midst of my life

  Waited for someone

  To pick me up

  And point me in

  The right direction

  Once hopelessly bound

  By small decisions

  How to live little

  The grandeur

  Of queenship.

  Let Go

  Are you fully living in the now?

  Or straying far away from here to yesterday’s beliefs of tomorrow’s assumptions

  Blinded again by the dazzle of the five

  Sometimes believing to be

  Separated